Two weeks until my vacation to Europe and I'm full of mixed emotions. I mean, of course I'm excited out of my mind, but I'm finally able to travel the way that I've always wanted to travel for the longest. This is by far one of my biggest accomplishments.
Every little girl dreams of the day that she will venture out into the world and experience every aspect it has to offer; the glitz, the glamour, the difference of cultures. That was the case for me, but I had no idea that someone I thought I loved and cared for despised the thought of me traveling, especially without him.
It's almost the one year mark that one of my good friends from college pursued her amazing opportunity to head to Europe to teach English. And of course, I thought that would be the perfect opportunity to travel to another country and to visit her while she was there. I planned the perfect time and everything. I thought what better way to celebrate your birthday than doing something new and out of this world. I told everyone about this plan and they were enthused about the idea. But, I left one person out of the loop because I was afraid of what his reaction would be for me to travel and especially out of the country at that.
First of all, If you have to feel scared in some way to talk to your significant other, then clearly that relationship is NOT meant for you. You should be able to talk to that person and hold a conversation without it getting out of hand. I, for one, was scared of what he would say because of previous altercations we've had.
I finally got up the courage to let him know of my birthday plans for the upcoming year and of course I was right. He was livid! He called me selfish, spoiled, inconsiderate. He asked, "why did I have to go out the country for my birthday, why not just the beach?" He never did understand that he had responsibilities that I didn't have for myself. Our bills were different. He had a child to take care of and I didn't. I just felt like I was being weighed down for the choices that he made in his life. He DIDN'T and NEVER understood the relationships I held among my friends. The trip meant the world to me. But, I knew in the back in my mind, I still had to make it happen.
Fast Forward One month, I broke up with him. One of the hardest physical and mental thing I had to do. But, it was for the best. I finally started to learn who I really am as a person.
Another three months pass. I'm finally out of the "ended relationship" phase and my happiness and personality start to shine again and I remembered the Europe trip I wanted to plan. I text my friend and she's just as excited as the day I first told her. I immediately started looking for plane tickets.
I booked my flight in June for a two-week vacation in Europe. This is not just a trip for me but a symbol of me standing up to someone who brought me down for so long. Don't EVER let someone tell you that you can't do something. That caused me to want it even more to prove that you can't stop me or hold me back from doing and being great. You're supposed to grow and support each other no matter what.
The minute you choose to do what you really want to do, you start living a different kind of life.
I'm ready to continue finding who I really am as a person.